[Note in 2023: I intend to apply some updates to this page, some time soon. Patience.]
Sorry you're here, as they say.
This domain serves to collect a few resources that may be of interest to ashers: people involved with the alt.suicide.holiday newsgroup and its numerous offshoots, generally concerned with the individual's right to die.
Documents on this site are provided mainly for historical purposes. If you are actively suicidal, you should explore all your options, including options like not dying, or getting psychiatric support. In particular, do not assume that any information on medical matters or suicide methods is necessarily accurate; it is hard to compile such information in a society that opposes suicide, and much is hearsay.
If you want to publish something here, or to archive an ash-related site that is no longer active (including personal Web sites of ashers), that might be possible: contact the site maintainer.
Here's an archive of the original ash Web site that existed from 1993 to 2002 under various maintainers, most memorably at ash.xanthia.com. The archive is somewhat out of date, with many broken links, and will no longer be updated. It is preserved here for historical purposes.
There is also an archive of #alt.suicide.bus.stop (or ASBS), which used to consist of a moderated Web forum at ashbusstop.org and an IRC channel on its own private network, but eventually closed down in 2008.
If you like to read, and you're interested in why society won't permit suicide, then why not read Thomas Szasz?
The original alt.suicide.holiday was a Usenet newsgroup: a kind of forum for plain-text messages, a bit like e-mail. (Usenet existed even before Web browsers, and is still around, but largely abandoned these days.) Since then, there have been various other incarnations, such as IRC channels (Internet Relay Chat, where people can exchange typed messages in real time) and Web-based message boards. These have been operated by various different people under various different rules.
As of early 2023: I would recommend as an ashy discussion group:
This is a Web forum where you must sign up (e-mail address). At time of writing they say: "We provide a safe space to discuss the topic of suicide without the censorship of other places, [...] You can [...] vent, talk to like-minded individuals, share your experiences, or to empathize and offer kind words to others who might need them." — I believe some of the moderators come from earlier ash communities.
Always remember that suicide discussion groups, because of their emotional nature, are a particularly easy target for "trolls", or online troublemakers.
Well, for pure historical interest, here are some old links that probably don't work.
It is the Myosotis arvensis, or "forget-me-not".
Last update to this page: Feb 19 2023.